Sunday, March 22, 2015

a good week

It has been a good week! My first in a looooong time!
I finally was able to return to Tuesday morning Bible study. My friend, Samantha shared her testimony with us. It was so great! She is such a great speaker!
Afterwards, I went to lunch with her, Laurie, and Ginger.
 I usually make a St. Patrick's day breakfast of green pancakes, or toast with green sugar. I totally did not get up and do that this year, so I picked up some cupcakes before the kids got out of school. I sprinkled green sugar on them, and voila! St. Patrick's day treat!
 This week began March Madness! We have a tradition of filling out brackets as a family and competing against each other. Whoever wins gets to pick a fun activity to do!
 I keep our brackets from previous years filed away! HA!
My not-doing-so-well bracket
C Girl's class is doing a project where they are writing about what they want to be when they grow up and they dressed up and took photos to add to the scrapbook they are creating.
My girl informed me that she wanted to be a zookeeper. What??!! I had two days to find stuff for a zookeeper uniform. Yay for Goodwill and a $2.50 khaki shirt!
After school on Friday, we celebrated Spring break by stopping at Sonic for slushes!
We dropped B Boy off with Tim so they could head to baseball practice and C Girl and I hit the stores! We had a really fun time shopping together!
How silly is this girl?!
 Keith, Jessica and Parker came to stay with us this weekend! 
B Boy had baseball practice yesterday and Jessica, C Girl and I did more shopping! We had a really fun time!
We hung out and watched the Hogs play in the 2nd round of the tournament last night. 
We played North Carolina and the game was c.r.a.z.y.! It was fast paced and fun, but ultimately we lost :-(
We had a relaxing morning today and then got ready to go have a picnic and hike.
I was so disappointed that it was not sunny earlier, but we still had a great time!!!
 Uncle Keithy was king of the mountain!!!
 My sweet guys!
 starting our hike

It was fun to get my big camera out for the day.
It was wonderful to see things budding!
 Love these people!
 Love my people!
We saw a little three toed woodpecker
I imagine this is what C Girl and B Boy will look like one day. This brother of mine is almost 3 years younger than me!
I'm so lucky to have a sister and best friend all in one. 
She knows me better than anyone besides Tim. I love her so and was so glad to be with her again this weekend!

Monday, March 16, 2015

a weekly update

I am coming to you today from the most beautiful day of the year to date!
It is sunny and 70 degrees. I'm outside working because I have people cleaning my house!!! (Thank you, Tim!)
I had a great follow up appointment with my GI doctor about my Crohn's this morning and do not have to go back for 6 months!
It is a good day.
Thank you to everyone who left a comment on my previous post. 
It has been a tough winter for me, for sure.
I know my health will get better and I'll regain my energy. 
For now, I'm going to enjoy that today is a good day.

Last Tuesday, I met with my Christian mentor. She is a lovely lady who goes to our church and I serve on the BPTO with! We had a great lunch and wonderful conversation. I am so looking forward to our times together!
 C Girl had an ortho appointment on Wednesday. Afterwards, we hopped into Hobby Lobby which just so happens to be pretty close to her dentist! We also ate at Popeyes for the first time ever. We are fans!
 It has been very rainy and dreary lately. B Boy has "officially" started soccer and baseball, but we have not had one soccer practice yet and only one baseball practice. We have missed 5 soccer practices!!! We are supposed to have one on Thursday evening, but yet again, it looks like rain is in the forecast!

On Thursday, I had a BPTO meeting. I love serving on the district PTO board- I feel like I am always in the loop!
We had our normal piano lesson on Thursday and I got to catch up with my friend, Amber whose son has lessons at the same time!

On Friday, I did our weekly grocery run and had to get ready for a Sunday school fellowship that night. It was called "Guess Who's Coming to Dinner." We knew the home we were going to, but we didn't know who else would be there! The hosts also did not know who their guests would be! We had a lot of fun visiting with the Murray and Bates families!
 C Girl had her GA Journey night at church that night! They had a lot of fun! Next year, she gets to stay the night!!!
 photo from my friend, Ginger
 This boy is already almost finished with the 5th Harry Potter book!!! He loves this series so much!

The Hogs have been playing some GOOD basketball this year. We are No. 21 in the country and we were the 2 seed in the SEC tournament. We ended up losing to Kentucky (the No. 1 team in the nation), but we are a 5 seed in the NCAA tournament!!!!
I need to fill out my bracket ASAP! The kids and Tim are all excited to fill their's out too! We all compete and whoever has the best bracket gets to choose a place to eat or go have fun!

C Girl played with a neighbor friend who is also in her class on Saturday. She ended up staying the night and they had the best time! We took B Boy to his favorite restaurant and just relaxed the rest of the evening.
Yesterday was also a gorgeous day. We had church, a makeup piano lesson, the Hog game, and then we sat outside and enjoyed the sun. Tim grilled burgers and it made me look forward to spring and summer so much!

Saturday, March 14, 2015

Grieving

A friend of mine who has went through breast cancer, chemo, mastectomy, and reconstruction posted on Facebook the other night. She mentioned how much she was grieving her life before cancer. She's not able to do all of the things she could do before yet. She has physical reminders on her body and the thinking about cancer and worrying are constantly on her mind. 

I know that her and I are going through two totally different situations but when I read what she wrote, I got it. 

I feel like I have been in a grieving process these past few months. I know the weather and my ear infection have also contributed, but I have felt so defeated. I've felt like I had lost the old me. Never mind the fact that the old me also didn't feel well- I didn't have the diagnosis of a life long disease then. 

I have never felt this low as a wife and mother. I keep wondering if I am damaging these precious souls by my constant irritability. I just miss having energy to do things with them. I miss being in a great mood. 

I feel like a failure because it's all I can do to make dinner or start laundry. Our house is not nearly as clean as it usually is and that makes me feel that I am failing at keeping up our home (which is a big part of my job, in my book.)

I know I will come through this, but it's just where I am right now. 

I just miss me. 

Monday, March 9, 2015

Happy March!

Happy March!
Well, I sure have missed being here lately. I only posted 4 times last month! That is one of the smallest number of posts in a month since back in 2009 when I started blogging and thought you should only post when something monumental happened, lol. 

These last 2 weeks have been terrible. I'm just now getting to where I feel human again. I still do not feel great, but I know I'm getting there. 

I'm not going to lie, though. This has been very hard on me. I always seem to have a very rough time during the late winter months. When you mix sickness with snow days on end, it's just tough. I have felt like a terrible wife and mother. I haven't felt well, so I haven't cooked, cleaned, or wanted to do anything fun with the kids. I know that I can't help that, but it doesn't stop me from feeling guilty. I can't remember a time when I was ever down for this long. I have had periods of health issues, but I always seem to still be able to function through most of it. This time, I have been just completely worthless. It's amazing that your ear can cause so much havoc.

I just feel like I have been home-bound for too long! I'm longing for sunshine and warmth in a way that I can't even explain!
 I think we all are dreaming of spring time!
 I'm so thankful that we can watch our church services on LiveStream when we have to miss.
 This was leftover snow from February that had not melted last week. So dreary!
Last Tuesday, I saved up my energy to be able to go to my hair appointment. A girl needs her hair done even when she feels bad! I think it was the first time I put on makeup in over a week at that point.
Last Wednesday, we got another winter storm. It started with this layer of sleet.
 And then, huge puffs of snow began falling.
 At one point, it looked like a blizzard outside!
Alas, this caused us to be out of school on Wednesday and Thursday last week.
 C Girl and I did some coloring though! I find it so relaxing!

We did get out of the house on Thursday afternoon to take me to a follow up appointment about my ear. The doctor said that in all, this infection will be a 3 week ordeal. I am at a little over 2 weeks now, so hopefully this week will be a huge improvement. I went to see him on Monday last week as well. At that appointment, he had to drain my ear. If you are not sure what that means, he had to basically cut a hole in my eardrum that had ruptured. It had healed and fluid was bulging behind it. It was extremely painful until he was able to drain it. It is still draining now, thankfully. I will be so ready when all of this is behind me!
 On Friday, I went to lunch with some friends at the Wooden Spoon in Gentry. We mainly go for the dessert. That my friends, is a yummy bread pudding swimming in a bath of butter sauce. Oh, it was so good! It was so nice to get out of the house and visit with friends, but it exhausted me. I spent the rest of the day/evening laying on the couch. I cannot believe how tired my body gets!
 Saturday morning, we headed to Cracker Barrel for breakfast. It has been a long time since we have went out for breakfast. We love us some CB pancakes!
 B Boy had his first baseball practice that afternoon! He was actually supposed to have soccer practice as well, but it was cancelled. It was the 3rd soccer practice that has been cancelled due to the weather. We haven't had 1 practice yet! Hopefully, we will on Thursday evening. It is going to be a busy spring with both of these sports going on!
The baseball fields were still wet, so they had practice at a batting cage. Tim said that B Boy did pretty well!
The Razorbacks played LSU at Bud Walton Saturday afternoon. The Hogs are No. 18 in the country and are going to be in the NCAA tournament this year. I cannot wait! Sadly, we lost at the buzzer for this game. They have played so many games down to the wire this year. It's exciting, but very stressful!
This boy is COMPLETELY obsessed with the Harry Potter series. He just finished the 4th book this morning. He is constantly telling me about what he is reading and pretending to be Harry Potter. It's so fun! I remember reading these books and how much I loved them!

So, it's Monday. 
C Girl has the PARCC test this week. They only test until 10 am everyday, but I know that it's not fun to have to go to school and take a standardized test.
This girl of ours is something else.
I'm always so proud of her. She is super independent, smart, and tries new things, which is something I used to think would never happen.
On the flip side, she is super independent and wants everything to be done/go her way. 
It can be very tough dealing with that. I know she is on her way to becoming a "tween," and to be honest, I'm not real excited about that. 
I can already see things in her attitude that she is picking up from other girls. I know it is completely normal, but it means that things are different now.
I'm trying to learn how to teach/discipline her without doing it constantly. I don't want her to feel like that is all I do. I know that she needs lots of my love and support right now. 
That is so easy to say, but way harder to implement when you are dealing with attitude.
Pray for us!

I am trying to catch up on things around here, but I can only do so much before I am tired. I know it will all get done eventually, but I hate not being able to do everything that I normally do. I also hate sounding like such a complainer!

So, happy March! it is the month of spring! Flowers, sun, and warmth!