Friday, October 3, 2014

when life is hard

I will be honest with you guys. The past two and a half weeks have not been great (but, there have been good times for sure.)
My cat died. 
Today would have been my precious mother in law's 76th birthday.
September 29th was the four year anniversary of her death.
I went to the ER Monday, was given medicine and that medicine has made me nauseated all week. So much so, that I have not been able to do anything. 
I've had to cancel every single thing this week. My entire goal yesterday was just to make dinner. 
One of the antibiotics is even giving me muscle pain. I take one twice a day and the other one, three times a day. I have so much dread before taking them.
I have been planted on my little sofa since Tuesday morning. 
I had fear last night that I might be getting an obstruction again. 

It's just been very hard. I don't feel well a lot, but I've realized this week that it could be a lot worse. I would give anything to feel my normal not feeling well. 
I've had these intestinal issues since 2007 and it really gets old. 
The doctor told me that the adhesions in my intestines from my appendectomy could cause an obstruction at any time and there is nothing I can do to prevent it. That makes me fearful.
It's something that I have absolutely no control over.
It's the kind of thing that you have to pray to God and say, I can't do anything about this, but I know that you will take care of me. Whatever your will is, that will be done.
I'm praying to get through these next few days of medicine and that I will feel so much better afterwards.

My Bible studies have been wonderful to help take my mind off of things. 
I love the one I am doing through church and another that I read on a blog. I've started following more Christian authors on Instagram and it is filled with inspiration and scripture everyday.
I'm thankful for my friends who call or text to check on me just about every day.
I'm thankful for my husband who has missed work, went grocery shopping, made dinners, cleaned the house, and taken care of the kids all on his own this week. That's not to say that he isn't capable of all of that stuff. It's just that I am normally a big part of that work!

2 Corinthians 1:3-4 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.

1 comment:

  1. Been thinking about you and I know you've been doing better. I'm so glad to hear of it! I know it's been a long road.


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