A friend of mine from Sunday school/church found out this week that she has breast cancer. Quite a few of us ladies from class went to her house tonight to pray over her. She will be having surgery tomorrow to remove the cancer.
I did lots of thinking on the drive there and back home.
I realized that I've never personally been touched by cancer. I've known "of" people who had cancer, but somehow I haven't had any close relatives or friends/acquaintances who have had cancer.
It's something that I know will change and it strikes fear in me. I've always been terrified of cancer. Anytime anything is wrong with me or feels wrong, my mind automatically starts questioning- "is it cancer?" "am I dying?"
I know it's irrational. I know that my trust is in God. But, still. The fear.
I can't imagine the fear my friend must be having. As a momma, you immediately think of your children. You want to always be there for them and to be well.
Tonight was so beautiful. Seeing friends praying over another friend was powerful. I've just been so thankful this week for friends. I'm blessed beyond belief.
It's sometimes so hard to make friends as an adult.
I know that I'm SO awkward with new friendships. I'm naturally shy and don't always know what to say. So, if you've ever noticed that I'm not saying much, that's probably why.
(However, I am just fine when I'm on Twitter or Facebook. I can talk all day. I guess it's another comfort zone of mine- behind a computer!)
I've had to come out of my element a LOT since moving to Bentonville. Introducing myself has always been hard for me, and I've had to do it a lot to meet new people here.
Don't you wish it was easy like kid friendships? Do you wish you could just walk up and say, "hey, wanna be my friend?!"
I'm thankful for ladies who have reached out to me and made me feel welcome and part of the gang.
I'm so glad I've been stepping out of my element because how would I ever have made friendships? As women, friendships are so important and Godly ones even more important. To have friends, new and old, that can pray for you and with you is so precious.
So tonight, I'm praying for my friend, Jenn, who has cancer. But, I'm so glad that even when trials come, we can go to God.
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, shall guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.