Sunday, November 7, 2010

Not always peachy

I normally don't write about things that are really personal.  Mainly it is just a snapshot of the things going on in our lives.  I guess today I am feeling different, needing to vent.  I have a difficult child.  Some days, I feel like a failure.  Today is one of those days.  When I look back on the big picture, I know I am not a failure.  I see the way my son is and I realize that they were both raised by the same parents, but children have their own personalities.  She has always been more difficult.  A lot of times, it's not a bad thing.  She knows what she wants and she stands up for herself.  Sometimes, however, it is a bad thing.  Somedays, she defies everything we say.  And the worst part is when it is in front of other people.  That is when I really feel like a failure. 

Life is difficult when you have children.  Please don't think that I think it is terrible.  I love being a mother and I love my children.  There is no greater joy than these two kiddos.  But not everyday is peachy.  It changes your whole life.  It affects your marriage.  It takes a lot of work.  Things that people don't always tell you are going to happen.  Today has been one of those not so peachy days.  But, tomorrow is a new day.  Tim and I have discussed ways we are going to try to help things go more smoother around here. We think she needs a little more structure in her day.  When a parent stays home with the children, they don't always have as much structure.  There is a lot of free time/playtime.  Hopefully with some more structure to her day, we can keep things from getting as hairy with her.  I'll let you know how that works out :-)

Also- it is November.  Oh my goodness, I cannot hardly believe it is already almost the end of another year.  It's one of my favorite times of year though.  I really am looking forward to the holidays.  Have a great week!

2 comments:

  1. All parents have those days. Reflection is always great and we always need a little adjustment and modification. Hopefully you will find that system that will work for her and that will benefit the whole household. We adjust at the house all the time. Being a good parent is hard work. You are doing a great job, the kids are receiving so much to help build them developmentally in all areas. Speed bumps happen. Don't beat yourself up too much.

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