I wrote this last night after a hard day and wasn't sure if I would post it or not-
Today did not rank as one of my best days.
There were physical/hormonal issues that contributed to my state of being today.
I was grumpy, impatient, and irritated at most things.
I wish I were better at being a person who does not wear their emotions on their sleeve.
I wish I had more patience. I wish I didn't snap or yell.
I just read news of someone who passed away and was really pretty young-51.
It snapped me back to reality.
I just see how quick life passes, and how quick things can change.
I pray for God to help me LIVE and be His servant and not someone focused on me or my own shortcomings.
I pray for God to help me to LOVE and to give GRACE and MERCY to others.
I know I need grace and mercy everyday, so I need to be doling it out too.
I want to be a blessing and not a burden.
This morning I read this post of Kelly's.
After that, I saw this post from Jenn.
And then I saw this post from Ann Voskamp.
I've also read posts by two other bloggers in the past 2 weeks, one of which had a recent huge transformation by God, and the other is just so honest and real about who she is as a person and as a Christian.
I've felt a stir in my soul for several years. I know that things are supernaturally happening. What they are, I have no idea. God is preparing people for whatever it may be though. I feel that certainty in my bones.
I want to be prepared. I always question whether I am prepared and what am I doing that is God's will.
I need to stop questioning so much and just seek Him.
I think we try to figure things out too much. I just don't think most of it is ours to figure out. Am I on my own with thinking that?
I also think that we get bogged down thinking about so many bad things happening and we don't always focus on the good and what God is doing.
Will this be a revival of Christianity, true Christianity? Not the Christianity that the world sees or how they view Christianity, but the real thing.
Don't you wish everyone could experience the true-ness of it and not what they see displayed in media?
"But in your hearts honor Christ the Lord as holy, always being prepared to make a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you; yet do it with gentleness and respect,"
1 Peter 3:15
I feel like I am rambling, but I felt like I needed to share all of this.
Let's pray together and for each other.
I feel like something we need to be prepared and to support each other, especially as women.
We are the ones raising this next generation and I think they will be doing great, big things.