I think that it is no secret that we all .
If you don't, then I would like to know your secret.
A lot of times, I struggle inwardly and I don't share my struggles.
I war with them on the inside and no one can see the massive war going on inside.
Sitting in Sunday school this past week, I had a lot of revelations about myself.
The lesson brought them out, but more than that, a friend shared a deep, inner failing.
She shared something that most of us would have just kept to ourselves.
It was so bold and raw.
I'm new to the class and her friendship and I'm a shy person. But, I grabbed her hand. I was the one sitting next to her and I felt the need to give her support. She had touched a nerve in me.
Honestly, it's really hard for me to show affection sometimes.
But, back to what I was getting at.
My eyes were opened and I began to write things down that I needed to get straight.
You see, I really struggle with some things and I know that I do, but I haven't been focusing on overcoming them.
I've just been dwelling in them.
And I don't want to live like that anymore.
Some of my struggles are huge and have been there a really long time.
I don't pray enough.
I have anxiety.
I spend too much time on social media and not enough time praying and listening.
I need to spend more time listening about where I am supposed to serve.
There is a plan for me, but I need to take time to listen for what it is.
Sometimes I wonder how long I've been missing the plan.
I get too busy doing this and doing that and I run out of time to do things that are truly the most important.
My flesh wants things to be "just so" but I have to let go of that and take time to be "just still."
"He says, 'Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.'" Psalm 46:10