"chronic disease" is two heavy words

I know most of you know how I over-committed myself a couple of years ago and got very burned out. 

Our family and home life suffered. 

It opened my eyes big time on what I, personally can handle. I

t seems to be a big trend right now to say "no" and "find your best yes" and "breathe" and "make white space." 

I know I learned quickly that those were things I needed to figure out. 

I think we all struggle with this in some way. 

Now that I'm dealing with a disease and finding the right treatment? The knowledge of what I can and can't do has become more important. 

There have been tons of days here and there that I haven't felt well, but when you are dealing with taking new medication- those days all come one right after another and it is discouraging. 

You see, I'm not the type of girl that likes to be down. I don't like not feeling good and not being able to accomplish normal things. 

I know it is a season, but it is difficult. 

My mindset has changed since my diagnosis in December. 

I can't seem to shake what I'm feeling. 

Instead of relief at knowing what was wrong, I felt the weight of the words chronic disease. It feels ever present. 

I'm not sure how to get past this feeling.

Advice and prayers are gladly accepted.