Not always peachy

I normally don't write about things that are really personal.  Mainly it is just a snapshot of the things going on in our lives.  I guess today I am feeling different, needing to vent.  I have a difficult child.  Some days, I feel like a failure.  Today is one of those days.  When I look back on the big picture, I know I am not a failure.  I see the way my son is and I realize that they were both raised by the same parents, but children have their own personalities.  She has always been more difficult.  A lot of times, it's not a bad thing.  She knows what she wants and she stands up for herself.  Sometimes, however, it is a bad thing.  Somedays, she defies everything we say.  And the worst part is when it is in front of other people.  That is when I really feel like a failure. 

Life is difficult when you have children.  Please don't think that I think it is terrible.  I love being a mother and I love my children.  There is no greater joy than these two kiddos.  But not everyday is peachy.  It changes your whole life.  It affects your marriage.  It takes a lot of work.  Things that people don't always tell you are going to happen.  Today has been one of those not so peachy days.  But, tomorrow is a new day.  Tim and I have discussed ways we are going to try to help things go more smoother around here. We think she needs a little more structure in her day.  When a parent stays home with the children, they don't always have as much structure.  There is a lot of free time/playtime.  Hopefully with some more structure to her day, we can keep things from getting as hairy with her.  I'll let you know how that works out :-)

Also- it is November.  Oh my goodness, I cannot hardly believe it is already almost the end of another year.  It's one of my favorite times of year though.  I really am looking forward to the holidays.  Have a great week!